so close.. yet so far..

okay, so the title might seem like what i'd say when reaching for my coffee fix to widen my eyes to keep going in the morning, but, well, just want to say something about the fact that this year is almost coming towards the end! argh! i don't believe it myself..this year is definitely one of those hectic ones where you don't even realize that you are one year older..
i guess what matters is i've learnt loads for this year, not just the exams-related ones, but also about life, most importantly. i never regret meeting anyone, even those whom i find despicable, they always teach me something-usually what i should avoid doing so people won't despise me.
It's funny how some people get irritated of the fact that people around them are happy, and so they spread tall tales to ruin others' reputation.Funny how i get to hear innuendoes upon innuendoes that are as lame as the sickly pop songs belted out by boybands these days.. I'm totally over these stories because.. i've been in hostel for the past 5 years, and am totally bored of the fact that some people just can't leave their habit of bad mouthing others behind.However, i find it sad and depressing that a large number of us students, who are, suppossedly getting ready to pursue our studies abroad have the kind of thinking that equates that of a regular high-school teenager:complete with their adolescent-ish angst.. There. That's what i feel with people who think so lowly of others when they don't even try to get to know the other person first. They would never grow up from this one-way thinking and, oh, how i pity them! Just imagine how they're going to cope with an environment that requires a thinking that is universal, when they're still stuck in their narrow perceptions!

College isn't just a place for you to pore over your books, it's the place for you to hone your social skills, or more importantly, your adaptability to change. We're not polar bears, for goodness sake!Human beings are social creatures, and we are the best among all God's creation, so why, just why, are some acting like they are part of a pack of hounds sometimes??
I guess they have this anxiety that they have to feed by stepping on other's feelings.. well, self-esteem is always the issue, especially with teens, but no one else understands what we feel better than those around our age, so why not talk to them? Sometimes you have to ditch your ego to enable you to better yourself, it's alright to try, people won't make fun of you, instead they'd be honoured that you look up to them, and would be more than happy to help you. Opening up to others does not show your stupidity, it shows that you are smart enough to not let yourself feel deprived, this is a sign of maturity, which people will respect.
Alright, i'm willing to apologize for sounding like a motivational text-book, but i can't keep these thoughts out of my head. I hate seeing people in depression and looking hung down and always on the look out to make others feel down as well.. we should be supporting each other, i mean we got each other, and we should push each other to be better, not going backwards.You have all that you need right in front of you, it just takes the will and effort for you to realize that it is there, and make use of it well.

Life would be so much better when you care about it, it's eaxctly like how a relationship works.. so if it's not working, then do something about it.. before it's too late..