- Light and Darkness, Black and White -

My teacher once wrote this on the board :
There's no need to light a night light,
On a night like tonight.
Because a night light
is just a slight light,
On a night like tonight.

Hmm.. makes you wonder what kind of night is that.. because night is equated with darkness but this one needs no light.. it's The Night.. what am I trying to imply here? well.. sometimes ordinary things that have absolutely no extravagant face value can turn to the most memorable thing ever with a single,slight change.It's funny how fate is like a jigsaw puzzle: whenever you switch or lost a piece it would change it's shape altogether.And it would never be the same.Memorable, as i've stated can be either positive or negative, but i would like to say that it's a good mixture of both. Why? Do you know that after a while, you will find that the happy things will sadden you while the sad things will make you happy? Basically,what i'm trying to say is you won't know what it's happy when you've never tasted sadness. You'll never know love if you don't know hate. Yes, we all hate the fact that black isn't just black, nor white is ever white.. but it's the way things are and you can't get away from it.
Ambiguity is mind-numbing and it leaves you in cold lonely wonder, but it strikes you when the time is really right for you to understand what life is about and how you should live it to the fullest.. i guess mine happened when it was my 'graduation day' after SPM ended in Form 5.. ironic how graduation is the climax of your scholastic endeavours.. but then after that it doesn't quiet matter at all.. it's the happiest and saddest day of school. It was even more intense for me because it was my birthday.I had never celebrated my birthday with friends before(people born in December don't get much presents)so it was a big thing to me.. end of SPM exams, graduation, my birthday,parting with friends, teachers, school.. i actually felt like i had to paste a smile on my face that day.. i was SUPPOSSED to be happy, well, i got good grades, great fiends, presents, chocholates and stuffs.. but there's something else that i wish for.. sometimes i hate myself for wanting more.. it feels like i'm not thankful enough.. i know that i'm so blessed.. i hate the fact that it's human nature to aspire for the better because it feels like i am greedy. I guess i could be a bit hard on myself at times.However, i THINK IT'S ALRIGHT TO WANT MORE, IT KEEPS YOU GOING ON, KEEPS YOUR HOPES UP, AND KEEPS YOU ALIVE.Perhaps the question is time.. and that is, of course, out of our control. The resolution? Do everything you do whole-heartedly: play hard, work hard, take risks,laugh and cry as hard as you can.. so you'll know what it feels like, and would never taste regret because it haunts and seeps into your mind, and will later depress you. Sometimes you have to die inside to be more alive,and well, obviously, it will hurt, but it will heal, and with it will come experience = priceless..